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Im having a really difficult time at the moment and has been like this for maybe 3/4 of a year.

Maharaj kirpa, i was blessed with amrit just over a year ago and in the start it was an unexplainable experience, however slowly i feel like i began to fall in my sikhi. I would look at all people and think with innocence that god resides in each person, but now i just seem to judge everyone and think bad about them. Vikaars have gone really bad and causes me much depression, to the point where i feel like suicide would be better than this suffering. I am a true believer that maharaj works through his gursikhs, and whenever i seem to go to the gurdwara i always seem to get dirty stares and looks from kamaii wale gursikhs and i just know that im not welcome, which causes me even more depression and stops me from going to the gurughar.

I try so hard, although i think about doing some of the old things i used to do before amrit (like smoking weed) i have been able to control myself enough to not commit any bujjer kurehit. For some reason i feel like i am being punished or i just dont feel the love from waheguru ji anymore, i try to boost my sharda by looking upto guru sahibaan but my mind even becomes to thing bad about our gurus ? 

my parents had a breakup not long ago and that seems to have made things worse recently as i just cannot focus on bani and simran, also because of the situation, i had to backup my mom and maybe maharaj isnt happy that we chose for my dad to leave. 

Im so confused sangat ji, dont know where to go, what to do. I do ardaas that maharaj blesses me with gurmat and gursikhi but im finding it difficult. The reason im writing this is because just today i spent most of the day reading bani, doing simran and it was really nice, and then the moment i sit down to do my university revision im just hit with depression from nowhere and this is an onwards cycle every single time, its so frustrating.

Sorry this was so long, I do benti in ur charan sangat ji that you give me your support and help me get through this. Im honestly so stuck and confused i dont see the point of living life without the pyaar for maharaj.

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22 hours ago, Guest Thinking said:

Wjkk wjkf

Im having a really difficult time at the moment and has been like this for maybe 3/4 of a year.

Maharaj kirpa, i was blessed with amrit just over a year ago and in the start it was an unexplainable experience, however slowly i feel like i began to fall in my sikhi. I would look at all people and think with innocence that god resides in each person, but now i just seem to judge everyone and think bad about them. Vikaars have gone really bad and causes me much depression, to the point where i feel like suicide would be better than this suffering. I am a true believer that maharaj works through his gursikhs, and whenever i seem to go to the gurdwara i always seem to get dirty stares and looks from kamaii wale gursikhs and i just know that im not welcome, which causes me even more depression and stops me from going to the gurughar.

I try so hard, although i think about doing some of the old things i used to do before amrit (like smoking weed) i have been able to control myself enough to not commit any bujjer kurehit. For some reason i feel like i am being punished or i just dont feel the love from waheguru ji anymore, i try to boost my sharda by looking upto guru sahibaan but my mind even becomes to thing bad about our gurus ? 

my parents had a breakup not long ago and that seems to have made things worse recently as i just cannot focus on bani and simran, also because of the situation, i had to backup my mom and maybe maharaj isnt happy that we chose for my dad to leave. 

Im so confused sangat ji, dont know where to go, what to do. I do ardaas that maharaj blesses me with gurmat and gursikhi but im finding it difficult. The reason im writing this is because just today i spent most of the day reading bani, doing simran and it was really nice, and then the moment i sit down to do my university revision im just hit with depression from nowhere and this is an onwards cycle every single time, its so frustrating.

Sorry this was so long, I do benti in ur charan sangat ji that you give me your support and help me get through this. Im honestly so stuck and confused i dont see the point of living life without the pyaar for maharaj.

wjkk wjkf

You need to go to your doctor and get some counselling. You've had a lot of stress and  that is affecting you.  Don't push yourself too hard either, just do things seheje seheje, with ease.  Get professional help if you can't cope, it's nothing to be ashamed of.

Dont think about the people that don't welcome you, you are not alone. You go to the Gurdwara to meet Maharaj ji and for yourself to do Bhagti. You do not go there for anybody else. Therefore don't feel belittled by others, as everybody is there for the same reason. Have you thought of going to a different Gurdwara? You don't have to go where you don't feel comfortable. Go to another Gurdwara, it may make a difference to your state of mind. 

 

 

 

Heres some shabads to help with anxiety and low mood:

 

 

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You must keep strong! You are part of the Khalsa! Read the bani and translation of Khalsa Mahima and it can't be that it won't melt your heart. You are the Pure Khalsa of Vaheguru and what do you work for? Vaheguru Ji Ki Fateh. I also feel the same way about my schoolwork. I can't sleep at night because the stress is to much, I always have homework or assignments to hand in. And you know what to do? Forget that you even have work to do whilst doing paath and put your heart and soul into your paath. Do an ardas every day. I do an ardas everyday asking maharaaj for amrit. Have bharosa (faith) and Vaheguru will listen to you. And as penji said, do Sukhmani Sahib or do what I do: Listen to it whilst doing work. Here is the video: Please do listen to it!

I hope that this helped.

Bhull chuk maaf.

VJKK VJKF 

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18 hours ago, simran345 said:

That’s a lovely kirtan version of Sukhmani Sahib ji. 

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Yea I'm addicted to it at the moment... I listen to it all the time, its so peaceful. You can feel the tranquillity in the air and it puts your mind in a deeper zone. The power of gurbani.

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Thank you so much sangat ji for all your replies, i am most grateful for your support and encouragement may maharaj bless you all to remain in chardikala. Your comments were really helpful and i hope that i will be able to make the right changes in order to move forward from this. Thank you khalsa ji you’re the best!?

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20 hours ago, Guest Thinking said:

Thank you so much sangat ji for all your replies, i am most grateful for your support and encouragement may maharaj bless you all to remain in chardikala. Your comments were really helpful and i hope that i will be able to make the right changes in order to move forward from this. Thank you khalsa ji you’re the best!?

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Thank you for your blessings. 

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On 10/30/2017 at 10:28 AM, Guest Kaur 2 said:

VJKK VJKF

You must keep strong! You are part of the Khalsa! Read the bani and translation of Khalsa Mahima and it can't be that it won't melt your heart. You are the Pure Khalsa of Vaheguru and what do you work for? Vaheguru Ji Ki Fateh. I also feel the same way about my schoolwork. I can't sleep at night because the stress is to much, I always have homework or assignments to hand in. And you know what to do? Forget that you even have work to do whilst doing paath and put your heart and soul into your paath. Do an ardas every day. I do an ardas everyday asking maharaaj for amrit. Have bharosa (faith) and Vaheguru will listen to you. And as penji said, do Sukhmani Sahib or do what I do: Listen to it whilst doing work. Here is the video: Please do listen to it!

I hope that this helped.

Bhull chuk maaf.

VJKK VJKF 

Wowwwwwwww. That's really nice Shabad Kirtan. Thank you. 

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