Jaggi Johal has a haircut. He is a mona. So he is used to the flexibility of being able to identify as a Sikh when it suits him, and fly under the radar and not be identified when it is inconvenient for him. How could he have anticipated that one day that flexibility would disappear?
Bheinji what you are going through is quite normal in punjabi & Sikh families.
I'll recommend that you start a Sehaj Path, visit Gurdwara daily or often, do Sadhsangat, do Seva, join a gym or crossfit.
Create me time. Spend time doing what you like. Join women's support group both on & offline like Kaur United, Kaurs Corner.
Be active rather than passive.