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WAHEGURU JI KA KHALSA WAHEGURU JI KI FATEH!!!

This is a very serious please VERY VERY SERIOUS

I am dying. This fake me that I thought was me this whole time is dying. This ego or fake self. 

Through Satguru Ji (Waheguru Ji) Maharajs teachings/blessings I have come to realize that do not exist. But I this fake me my ego is trying to run. I (This fake me) have been slowly not being able to do my Nitnem my mind is trying to latch on to Vikaars beacause it doesnt want to die and or cotemplate Naam (The real me) BUT it I (my ego) knows at the same time it has nowere to run. I KNOW EVERYTHING is Waheguru Ji himself. What i see, hear, touch, think is all Him, my Beloved, so I KNOW i have nowere to run or hide.

I this ego knows this and it is still trying to run away (its trying to grasp something that it doesnt think is Waheguru Ji) its trying to stay alive by doing "bad" things. More it realizes that this vikaar is too apart of this game the more I (Waheguru Ji) realizes that this is just Me (Waheguru Ji) testing myself then I (my ego) it runs to something else another vikaar that can make "me" (this ego) feel alive. I know it is a matter of time before I die i know this 100%. I know that ill fully realize My self (Waheguru Ji) one day but Im going crazy but i cant say that at the same time cause i KNOW its kirpa.

What do i do? But idk at the same time idk why i came here.

idk i need help idk what i need to do??? How do i submit? Or do i just let myself run until i cany run no more? Accept the hukam ? Or maybe this is part of the Game for this character ? This is its story ?

Waheguru i just need something 

Im sorry i cant explain i just need your help Satguru Ji

 

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh

 

 

 

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You're having panic attacks and anxiety. Sort that out first, then think about anything else. 

Calm down, nothing's going to happen, you're getting into a stressed state by not relaxing. Whatever you've done is past and ask for forgiveness from God for that and to help to on the right path. 

You mention Hukam, listen to the shabad and contemplate it to help you:

Don't worry, take one step at a time. 

There's a past post that Harsharan paji put on "I". If I find it I'll add it later, can't seem to find it now. By the way Harsharan paji, wherever you are,  I think the OP would benefit from your input. 

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Similar thing happened to someone i know. He started meditating alot and had an out of body experience. When he saw his body lying down on the sofa with the eyes closed and not moving. He thought he had died. He got so scared that he stopped meditating and started playing games n was on the computer all day. He was afraid to meditate, even tho he knew i am the soul and this body is fake. 

You can do a couple of things: 

1. Pray. Ardaas. Explain ur problems to guruji. He will help

2. Sangat. Stay in the company of good ppl. Try to find someone more spiritually advanced ie a sant

3. Read more gurbani. Especially dasam granth bani. Read Akal Ustat, Chaupai Sahib, chandi di Vaar, see the morphasis of chandi into kali as a metaphor for urself. After killing the vikaars, ur ego wont die but transform into its better, bigger self. You will not have died but become enlightened. God will not take over and replace u. You will become God and have limitless power to destroy and create. Of couse i can say it, u can say it a thousand times but u must realize it not just know it. So read Gurbani, dasam bani, read Rumi's poetry, listen to spiritual discourse, read books by sant ishar singh ji rara sahib. Look into wat buddhism says about enlightenment. Read bhai randhirs singhs books or bahi vir singhs. These are online. Google 

Do ardaas, take a hukamnama. Remember Kirpa is needed.

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Guest Sukhwinder Singh

Dear Guest Jee,

do not worry at all, you are blessed by Guru Jee. Submit yourself into Him, by merging yourself in His jaap, then your fake ego will get dissolved, and only the pyar of Wahiguru will surround and fill you.

Stay blessed.

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I couldn't find Harsharan paji's post. Lucky paji also had something on "I", which can't find now. 

But came across this:

 

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I think you should focus on doing Paath and visit the Gurdwara more often, do some Seva, and if you're a English native watch the Youtube channel Basic of Sikhi, remember all the Shaheeds and the Guru's sacrifice. 

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Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh

Thank you for helping me everyone. My apologizes i couldnt explain what was going on i tried my best to put it perfectly. Whatever was happening It was just part of the game for this particular character. But it realized through Satguru Jis Kirpa and blessings that

There is nothing but Waheguru. There is NOTHING BUT WAHEGURU. Waheguru Ji has done kirpa i see now that Realization IS the seeing. I see myself thats all that is seen. I never existed the way i thought i existed to begin with nor did these others i thought to be or thought to exist. It was me and it is me this whole time. Im talking to myself, i am helping myself, i am replying to myself, i am the one repling to this post that i wrote in various saroops. This is Ek Onkar and this is Naam. You reading this is me and this is you who typed it. There is no difference. I just had to submit to the truth that there is nothing but Waheguru. 

I had nowere to run and i knew this but still tried to run until i couldnt run anymore. Satguru Jis kirpa and mercy he made me realize this so it tried its best but knowing that Har Bin Avaar n Koi it eventually had to kneel infront of the Guru (Waheguru Ji) cause there is nothing but Waheguru then whos the one running??? Who was dying???? How can that die which never existed and why did it think to exist?? It never did. 

Main moorakh jayna adrooi reh. 

You are Waheguru and Waheguru is You there is no difference just sumbit to this realization and you will see the Truth you will see God and only God. There is truly noone and nothing but Waheguru.

Waheguru Dhan Satguru Granth Sahib Ji Mahraj. DHAN SATGURU GRANTH SAHIB JI MAHARAJ DHAN SATGURU SAHIB JI DE BHAGAT DHAN SATGURU SAHIB JI DE PYARE DHAN DHAN DHAN DHAN AKAAL PURKAH WAHEGURU SRI SATGURU GRANTH SAHIB JI MAHARAJ

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5 hours ago, Guest OriginalPoster said:

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh

Thank you for helping me everyone. My apologizes i couldnt explain what was going on i tried my best to put it perfectly. Whatever was happening It was just part of the game for this particular character. But it realized through Satguru Jis Kirpa and blessings that

There is nothing but Waheguru. There is NOTHING BUT WAHEGURU. Waheguru Ji has done kirpa i see now that Realization IS the seeing. I see myself thats all that is seen. I never existed the way i thought i existed to begin with nor did these others i thought to be or thought to exist. It was me and it is me this whole time. Im talking to myself, i am helping myself, i am replying to myself, i am the one repling to this post that i wrote in various saroops. This is Ek Onkar and this is Naam. You reading this is me and this is you who typed it. There is no difference. I just had to submit to the truth that there is nothing but Waheguru. 

I had nowere to run and i knew this but still tried to run until i couldnt run anymore. Satguru Jis kirpa and mercy he made me realize this so it tried its best but knowing that Har Bin Avaar n Koi it eventually had to kneel infront of the Guru (Waheguru Ji) cause there is nothing but Waheguru then whos the one running??? Who was dying???? How can that die which never existed and why did it think to exist?? It never did. 

Main moorakh jayna adrooi reh. 

You are Waheguru and Waheguru is You there is no difference just sumbit to this realization and you will see the Truth you will see God and only God. There is truly noone and nothing but Waheguru.

Waheguru Dhan Satguru Granth Sahib Ji Mahraj. DHAN SATGURU GRANTH SAHIB JI MAHARAJ DHAN SATGURU SAHIB JI DE BHAGAT DHAN SATGURU SAHIB JI DE PYARE DHAN DHAN DHAN DHAN AKAAL PURKAH WAHEGURU SRI SATGURU GRANTH SAHIB JI MAHARAJ

🙏🏻 Waheguru. Glad you're ok now. 

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This confused me alot if what you say is true and i am Waheguru than who am i worshipping?

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On 28/04/2017 at 6:33 AM, Guest ConfusedSardar said:

This confused me alot if what you say is true and i am Waheguru than who am i worshipping?

Guruji are the best one that explain this:

 

 

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On 28/4/2017 at 6:33 AM, Guest ConfusedSardar said:

This confused me alot if what you say is true and i am Waheguru than who am i worshipping?

Brother,

we are nobody to do anything by ourselves, the fact is, He worships Himself through us.

We are moorakhs and mugadhs, Heis the Kartar.

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On 22/4/2017 at 3:19 PM, Guest I don'y exist said:

WAHEGURU JI KA KHALSA WAHEGURU JI KI FATEH!!!

This is a very serious please VERY VERY SERIOUS

I am dying. This fake me that I thought was me this whole time is dying. This ego or fake self. 

Through Satguru Ji (Waheguru Ji) Maharajs teachings/blessings I have come to realize that do not exist. But I this fake me my ego is trying to run. I (This fake me) have been slowly not being able to do my Nitnem my mind is trying to latch on to Vikaars beacause it doesnt want to die and or cotemplate Naam (The real me) BUT it I (my ego) knows at the same time it has nowere to run. I KNOW EVERYTHING is Waheguru Ji himself. What i see, hear, touch, think is all Him, my Beloved, so I KNOW i have nowere to run or hide.

I this ego knows this and it is still trying to run away (its trying to grasp something that it doesnt think is Waheguru Ji) its trying to stay alive by doing "bad" things. More it realizes that this vikaar is too apart of this game the more I (Waheguru Ji) realizes that this is just Me (Waheguru Ji) testing myself then I (my ego) it runs to something else another vikaar that can make "me" (this ego) feel alive. I know it is a matter of time before I die i know this 100%. I know that ill fully realize My self (Waheguru Ji) one day but Im going crazy but i cant say that at the same time cause i KNOW its kirpa.

What do i do? But idk at the same time idk why i came here.

idk i need help idk what i need to do??? How do i submit? Or do i just let myself run until i cany run no more? Accept the hukam ? Or maybe this is part of the Game for this character ? This is its story ?

Waheguru i just need something 

Im sorry i cant explain i just need your help Satguru Ji

 

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh

 

 

 

Brother what do you fear of?

You say your fake ego is dying. That is indeed a good sign of his Grace on you, you should be happy about it.

Then you ask, how to submit to Him?

That is relatively easy. He does not want any materialistc items from us. He only wants our prem aur pyaar, our bhakti, our absolute faith at His Lotus feet, and all that can be achieved, if only we merge in Him, which is possible through His Simran.

Jin Har japeeya, se Har hoeeya.

Sat Sree Akal.

 

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Thanks brother yeah all He wants is our Love.

To the brother asking who are we worshipping. We are worshipping the Self existent the One the true formless Self the greatest and beyond ❤

What happened was I was very very depressed I was going crazy as i wrote in the fourm in the first post my ego was trying to run from the truth. I laid down that night after work i was destroyed i was soooo sad and started contimplating Naam as i was listening to the Shabad in my mind my mind said to itself Lord this has to be you too. And what happpened was my mind Gasped and it said to itself I dont exist. My mind died it was peace no thought nothing absoulty nothing. My breath started dissapearing as was my body a light or parkash came in front of me as this light was getting closer to me the Shabad Waheguru was getting louder and louder and louder until the parkash was absorbed into me and it was as if infinity beings was Jaaping Naam. I went through this light and there was my lord my master my beloved all of creation was chanting there everything everyone simutainously my lord the one the forever true was there formless i knew straight away it was my Guru but i still asked "who are you" and my lord said in the most beaitiful way "i am You" it was the most beautiful feeling it was so beautiful beyond beautiful truly no words. then i was absorbed into pure love this feeling i cant explain i was one i was infinite it was the most beautiful thing i was the centre of the universe. Idk but while all that was happening i asked why now why at this moment im terrible the worst sinner i waz avoiding u and  why now He said i was waiting for u to turn to me with love. Im not the one to cry ever but man it kills me I love him so much he showed me were he was in this characters life. He is and was there as my mum my dad my brithers my teachers my pets everyone and everything but i coudlnt see it... man this is so sad i love him si much i then said Guru sahib how was i suppose to know it was you and he showed me my Guru my beloved every thing my Guru sahib Said and everytime the character was reading Gurbani and was at Satguru Jis feet. i couldnt stop repenting i went into this deep repentance. it was so beautiful and i cant exaplain but the conversation wasnt like having it with a human it was with myself the true self the one and infintie... DHAN AKAAL PURAKH WAHEGURU SATGURU  GRANTH SAHIB JI MAHARAJ. Writing this was hard i cant explain how beautiful it is and how much he loves us or how it was happening i probably made no sense. But yeah This is all a projection of Himself the Oneself and It is him Testing his Greatness. But again you dont need to see anything  just realize and stay in this realizastion that there is nothing but Waheguru it is all You the One this is Naam with the help of the breath and Shabad stay in Oneness in Naam. And contimplate The self existant the One forever. 

JAA TU MERE VAL HAI TA KYA MOHCHANDA

Waheguru pul chuk maaf karni

 

THANK YOU ALL

WAHEGURU ❤

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On 2017-4-27 at 10:33 PM, Guest ConfusedSardar said:

This confused me alot if what you say is true and i am Waheguru than who am i worshipping?

Depends on how you describe "I".  If you think "I" is something independent like thought or maker, then "I" has a false identity and "I" has not realized it's true self.  We worship Vaheguru who is the true self as described in Mool Mantar.  When "I" has realized it's true self, "I" will always bow in awe of Vaheguru as "I" has true humility and only experience Vaheguru as Vaheguru has commanded it to experience and only so long as "I" stays in Guru sahib feet.  "I" does not experience independently the one true realization.  If "I" is not singing, completely absorbed in tuhi tuhi tuhi or similar shabads, then "I" is living in duality, thinking it is self existent and/or independent.  

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