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Sanagt ji i am so ashamed to say i am an amritdhari who does full nitnem but i have still fallen into the trap of kaam, i dont know how but i ended up watching a porn video last week and ever since then i cannot help it i end up watching something or another... i hate it but still i do not know how it happens. 

I feel ashamed i feel as if mahraj ji must be so angry with me i keep telling myself to do simran whilst walking around ... i couldnt always do it before but now i hardly can at all ... i feel as if mahraj ji is going to punish me .. please sangat ji it is my request Guru ji never says no to the sangat.... although i am not worthy but the trap of kaam is worst of all ... please may i break free ... i hope mahraj ji see's this post as a form of ardas and request to him to help me ... it is only early day i do not want to be addicted :'( i am so scared

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Guest london jwaan

Guest shame, don't overly worry about this and drag yourself down. Ok you watched some porn. Try and stop and get yourself back on to the right path. It is a human frailty that you have fallen into. That's all. Others on this forum will come out with fanatical answers and be ready to burn your house down whilst waving their kirpans around. Jagsaw singh will probably post some off topic nonsense and JKVlondon will tell you that you are not sikh. ignore it. Just go and mutha taik next time youre in the gurdwara asking for gurus forgiveness and live your life

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On 04/02/2017 at 1:38 PM, Guest shame said:

Sanagt ji i am so ashamed to say i am an amritdhari who does full nitnem but i have still fallen into the trap of kaam, i dont know how but i ended up watching a porn video last week and ever since then i cannot help it i end up watching something or another... i hate it but still i do not know how it happens. 

I feel ashamed i feel as if mahraj ji must be so angry with me i keep telling myself to do simran whilst walking around ... i couldnt always do it before but now i hardly can at all ... i feel as if mahraj ji is going to punish me .. please sangat ji it is my request Guru ji never says no to the sangat.... although i am not worthy but the trap of kaam is worst of all ... please may i break free ... i hope mahraj ji see's this post as a form of ardas and request to him to help me ... it is only early day i do not want to be addicted :'( i am so scared

Look the problem is Kaam is the toughest nut to crack and being amritdhari it may seem taboo to speak about the struggle but the truth is you cannot eliminate kaam from life but only control its influence through naam . I'm guessing you're a young person and it doesn't matter which sex because everyone has the struggle, just be kind to yourself and try to pinpoint why you keep going back is it because you are lonely and want a partner if so maybe it's your time to find one , if its just thrill seeking then go out and find better uses for your energy maybe take up a sport /calisthenics/ freerunning whatever  and get your buzz there. Guru ji know your deepest thoughts and emotions  so do an Ardas for help with this , guaranteed Guru ji will send some your way . Guru ji would want you to keep your rehit but also knows how hard it can be for mere mortals to overcome the great deceiver , maya  so don't feel that there is any anger coming from Him , only a reminder to get up, dust off and resume . Everyone makes mistakes , stay in chardikala and avoid the dodgy websites for your own happiness. 

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The most common vice to fall into. 

Make a vow to God that you'll stop and dont break it.

Have some self respect,it's a dirty habit which u need to break. Break out of the cycle you've put yourself in. 

Start doing naam, naam cleanses us of our sins, and keeps our minds off bullsh*t. 

When u remember God, your desire for vices decreases. Read Gurbani and Accept and Apply it. 

 

Www.satnaam.info, read the Writings section on the site, it tells u how to deal with Kaam.

 

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Guest Jagsaw_Singh

Guest Shame, get a grip bruvs (no pun intended) and look at the wider picture. In the bigger scheme of things this is a very small thing (no pun intended).  There are amritdharis out there that became so in order to enrich themselves, some that lie and cheat, some that break laws, some that defraud the welfare. System and expect us to foot the bill, some that steal, some that betray marital vows. All you've done is watch a porn movie. Stop beating yourself up about it (no pun intended)

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