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i posted couple weeks back about reading bani from shri dasam granth. iv been reading Jaap sahib. last few weeks iv felt like im becoming a lot more closer to Sikhi. it might sound weird but i feel close to guru gobind singh ji! dont know how to explain, but like i go gurdwara nearly everyday and when i do matha tekh i always ask guru ji to make me closer to him and to make me a better sikh and give me opportunities to do seva. i have mp3 simran and jaap sahib and shastar naam mala on my phone and listen to it when i go out and about. i also have Nagara playing at hazoor sahib with aarti happening at the back on my phone to and listen to that on repeat. i also have stuck guru gobind singh ji's paintings everywhere in my room. since all this iv noticed iv been feeling kaam lust less. before all this i use to masturbate everyday! sometimes several times a day! though iv never had sex i use to think its ok to sleep around. i had been asked for casual sex several times my colleges etc but made excuses and refused because im of a shy nature and had anxiety. but now i cant remember the last time iv masturbated! if a wrong thought comes to my mind i imagine guru ji's image or start doing waheguru in my head and it goes away. i mean i dont even feel that interested in all that anymore! yeah i do get thoughts now and then but i dont act on it.  is this normal?  does this happen?  i even sometimes use to do matha tekh and ask guru ji to help me with kaam.   since then iv also gained an interest in nihangs, hazoor sahib and guru ji's shastars and childhood stories.  i use to have serious anxiety problems and take anti depressant pills but last few weeks iv been feeling so confident! i have developed these strong feelings towards guru ji. because im confident now whenever i see anyone struggling on the street i always ask them if they need help. i just have been feeling very different. im not amritdhari but i dont eat meat anymore and i dont drink anymore either. iv just been feeling so confident and different recently, my anxiety is gone and i truly feel its my trust in guru ji that has helped a lot.    

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Guest Bdydvdjska sh

Chalda rehnda veerey

kde kde eh feel hon lg jnda ke me bhut najdeek han

kde dooor dooor feel hon lg jnda

pta ni kinne janam lagne aa aje prapti lai

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I read Curious Guest's comments (the first post in this thread) and almost felt they were my own mirror image with the only exception that I have been feeding my spirit with the holiness of Sukhmani Sahib and using technology to attend numerous kirtan smagams from "nirole" Gurbani preachers. I do not think the difference ( Jaap Sahib vs. Sukhmani Sahib) in the bani we recite matters as much as it is the discipline of doing it without fail.

A non-sikh very close friend of mine who is very absorbed in the "Moh-Mayia" tells me all the time that my changed ways of life (vegetarian, no alcohol, drop in the worldly desires), that these are all signs of being in depression. I disagree with that notion, at the surface it may seem depression but the experiences I feel are so pleasant, thoughts are getting purer, lot of self introspection, it all helps me cement my Sikhi beleifs to the core.....I think folks like my friend analyze similar to a blind describing a visual from only their touch but not vision.

Anyway praying for "Sarbat da Bhalla" so humanity including us can elevate our souls to be one with the Lord. I feel so blessed to be born into Sikhism, it is such a simple, pure, humane religion that just the thought of Sikhi and its values gives me goose-bumps!

Chardi Kala - Gur Fateh!

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