Last year was a tough year. We decided we were having an extension to be done in the house. This resulted in a great deal of disruption to our normal routine. It also meant that we were more busy than ever and had lesser visitors around. It meant we were eating simpler foods. It also meant that the TV was off for a significant amount of time. This is when I had my ipod on for long periods of time. I was listening to a lot of shabad kirtan, We were visiting lesser people so I was spending a significant amount of time on my own. (Listening to shabads, I would have tears rolling down my eyes and would cry a great deal)
I had never woken up at Amrit vela to do path. I decided to do this and Amrit vela was truly magical. I had a number of experiences of being woken up by divine forces and the urge to start praying. It is at this time that one day I was listening to the shabad - ik shin dharas dhikhaye ji.
Then I started to wonder what it would be to get darshan for just a minute. Deep in my heart I starting longing for darshan of one minute. I woke up at Amrit vela - did all my prayers and went to sleep. When I was sleeping - I had this wonderful blissful experience which is totally difficult to describe. My soul was totally awakened and my heart felt like it filled my whole body. I felt totally different and there was a voice deep deep in me asking me If I wanted Waheguru and there was Waheguru simran going on like I have never heard or felt before. The voice was so clear. There was nothing to see - it was just a feeling. A very clear feeling. My answer was yes - I wanted Waheguru. The voice replied to me - Then keep doing the jap of Waheguru. The voice was not heard by my ears but by my soul.
Then the great feeling started to part. My husband was calling me below to do something. (in my dream) I was pleading with him, please give me one second - the feeling is leaving me and I dont want it to end. In my dream my soul was sort of hanging in the air and I could not get down to do the task he was asking me to.
I was in full consciousness but sort of paralysed. Something kept tugging me on the side and I thought it was my son. The feeling which I was getting of Waheguru was so sweet that I could not let it go but it kept departing. My soul was yearning for it and an explanation came to me instantly and I understood - not now it said - you still have people who need you.
I woke up and opened my eyes. I thought my son was on the side pulling at my blanket - but he was not. The feeling of his hands on my side was so real, that I was just wondering what had been happening to me. Some force had come to my assistance to bring my soul back to my body. I was wondering whether I had died or what was it?
I was only full of regret - why did I ask darshaan of only ik shin? I should have asked more. How did I know that this wish would be fulfilled? If I had known then I would definitely have asked for more.
So if you are doing simran or bhagti or anything else (meditation, listening to shabads) be hopeful and know that Waheguru is real. YOu need to keep working and try to beat all the obstacles which will come your way. Use your time wisely - choose your friends wisely and keep your thoughts positive and focused all the time.
The hope which we rely on and the reward of darshan of one minute is so beautiful that it fills you up with regret when you have to depart. Keep praying that Waheguru can keep us in sach khand right under his care and under his wings such that we do not have to depart from him again and come to this earth to suffer.
The real spiritual world which we long to see is seen with closed eyes. What we see when we open our eyes is all false. Yes it was and it is a sad departing when we leave God to come to this world. God wants us to unite with him, but we can only meet him through our actions. So let us start doing the things which will bring us closer to God.
ਰਾਗੁ ਗਉੜੀ ਪੂਰਬੀ ਮਹਲਾ ੫ रागु गउड़ी पूरबी महला ५ Rāg ga▫oṛī pūrbī mėhlā 5 Raag Gauree Poorbee, Fifth Mehl:
ੴ ਸਤਿਗੁਰ ਪ੍ਰਸਾਦਿ ॥ ੴ सतिगुर प्रसादि ॥ Ik▫oaŉkār saṯgur parsāḏ. One Universal Creator God. By The Grace Of The True Guru:
ਕਿਨ ਬਿਧਿ ਮਿਲੈ ਗੁਸਾਈ ਮੇਰੇ ਰਾਮ ਰਾਇ ॥ किन बिधि मिलै गुसाई मेरे राम राइ ॥ Kin biḏẖ milai gusā▫ī mere rām rā▫e. How may I meet my Master, the King, the Lord of the Universe?
ਕੋਈ ਐਸਾ ਸੰਤੁ ਸਹਜ ਸੁਖਦਾਤਾ ਮੋਹਿ ਮਾਰਗੁ ਦੇਇ ਬਤਾਈ ॥੧॥ ਰਹਾਉ ॥ कोई ऐसा संतु सहज सुखदाता मोहि मारगु देइ बताई ॥१॥ रहाउ ॥ Ko▫ī aisā sanṯ sahj sukẖ▫ḏāṯa mohi mārag ḏe▫e baṯā▫ī. ||1|| rahā▫o. Is there any Saint, who can bestow such celestial peace, and show me the Way to Him? ||1||Pause||
ਅੰਤਰਿ ਅਲਖੁ ਨ ਜਾਈ ਲਖਿਆ ਵਿਚਿ ਪੜਦਾ ਹਉਮੈ ਪਾਈ ॥ अंतरि अलखु न जाई लखिआ विचि पड़दा हउमै पाई ॥ Anṯar alakẖ na jā▫ī lakẖi▫ā vicẖ paṛ▫ḏā ha▫umai pā▫ī. The Unseen Lord is deep within the self; He cannot be seen; the curtain of egotism intervenes.
ਮਾਇਆ ਮੋਹਿ ਸਭੋ ਜਗੁ ਸੋਇਆ ਇਹੁ ਭਰਮੁ ਕਹਹੁ ਕਿਉ ਜਾਈ ॥੧॥ माइआ मोहि सभो जगु सोइआ इहु भरमु कहहु किउ जाई ॥१॥ Mā▫i▫ā mohi sabẖo jag so▫i▫ā ih bẖaram kahhu ki▫o jā▫ī. ||1|| In emotional attachment to Maya, all the world is asleep. Tell me, how can this doubt be dispelled? ||1||
ਏਕਾ ਸੰਗਤਿ ਇਕਤੁ ਗ੍ਰਿਹਿ ਬਸਤੇ ਮਿਲਿ ਬਾਤ ਨ ਕਰਤੇ ਭਾਈ ॥ एका संगति इकतु ग्रिहि बसते मिलि बात न करते भाई ॥ Ėkā sangaṯ ikaṯ garihi basṯe mil bāṯ na karṯe bẖā▫ī. The one lives together with the other in the same house, but they do not talk to one another, O Siblings of Destiny.
ਏਕ ਬਸਤੁ ਬਿਨੁ ਪੰਚ ਦੁਹੇਲੇ ਓਹ ਬਸਤੁ ਅਗੋਚਰ ਠਾਈ ॥੨॥ एक बसतु बिनु पंच दुहेले ओह बसतु अगोचर ठाई ॥२॥ Ėk basaṯ bin pancẖ ḏuhele oh basaṯ agocẖar ṯẖā▫ī. ||2|| Without the one substance, the five are miserable; that substance is in the unapproachable place. ||2||