Lust?!?!?!?!?!

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Having problems with lust....masturbation n porn...when i was a younger i didnt even know what it was....i didnt even know porn or masturbating existed until i was about 15... that was the age wen i started experimenting, and when i found out i got addicted.. Im 17 now and im just really horny all the time. I can go about 2 weeks without doing it but when i do i always have weird lustful dreams. I want to get back into sikhi so badly but i cant because i feel like a fake...like i dont even deserve to say gods name.. I say back into sikhi because when i was younger i used to be very religious but ever since i started masturbation and stuff i feel bad everytime i go gurdwara or do simran etc...

Im sorry ive had to post this, but i dont know what else i could do....this isnt exactly a topic u can speak to your parents about :L