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I am a totally reformed person now. I used to be the worst pappi whereby I would commit crimes and sin without ever realising. I never hurt anyone or sucked anyones blood and sweat like you see apne factory owners doing, but I partied, drugs, liquor, women,...etc.. and I really enjoyed myself. I also commited crimes for self gain and was a pappi even though I never realised at the time. I am totally the opposite now. I have woken up to realise what a materialistic and worldly loser I was. I no longer have any interest in enjoying worldly pleasures or becoming rich without hard work. I spend all time away from the people I have always known and I am trying very hard with baghti. I meditate and read gurbani all the time, I have never felt so much love for anyone or anything as much as i do for God. I really want to advance and become an important sikh that can help others into this same path. But I don't know if I am totally forgiven by God. When i do ardass i never ask for anything. nothing at all Except that God Forgives me for my past sins. I am also concerned if I can ever be good enough to be a helping sikh figure without the past dhaagh or stains showing up in my colours. I want to know if there has ever been a higly respected sant/brahmgyani/ or mahpursh that had previously been a pappi like me and then they had completely reformed ??? i need help because i don't have any plans for the future except that i want to carry on doing baghti and helping others.