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  1. I am a young girl who took Amrit recently, I feel like I was pressured and forced into it, I know I could've said no but it was more of a blackmail/love reason. I know I'm only to blame for this but why would Maharaj allow me to take Amrit if they knew I wasn't ready for it? Yes now I do live in rehat don't commit any bujjar kreths but I find it so hard. I did it because I thought I loved a boy and he pressured me into it being Amrit Dhari himself. The boy started hitting me and abusing me and speaking/ meeting several different girls, I couldn't do anything about it because I felt like I had changed for him and I felt like I was stuck with him I feel like I've been groomed in my own religion. Ive lost all my friends and hardly speak to any family (I study so I live out for university), because they know this person isn't good for me. I feel at such a low point in my life and I feel so alone, I thought taking Amrit was meant to uplift someone and make them happy. I'm at a stage in life where I don't even know if I believe in god and feel very suicidal. I just don't know what to do any more I have no one.
  2. Vaheguru Ji Ka Khalsa, Vaheguru Ji Ke Fateh I've been lost for so long and am unbelievably afraid today. Haven't done any paath in so long (am amritdhari), I just need someone to tell me where to start, and I need to start tonight or this time will never end. Should I force myself to do Sukhmani Sahib, or let myself do as much as I feel like? Thank you
  3. Sikh Sangat Ji, Vaheguru Ji Ka Khalsa, Vaheguru Ji Ke Fateh! I shall try my best to put into the smallest amount of words what I am looking for and why. As a person, I had never been in touch with my emotions, nor did I ever consider this an omission in my life. With Guru's Kirpa, I was given the ability to really understand my emotions, and I began to develop, in all directions. This was an unimaginable experience for me, but at the time, of course, I didn't stop to think of how incredible I felt, because it felt so natural and real. This probably lasted for a month or two. And that may sound short, well, it indeed does, but I was in chardikala! Time wasn't on my mind! Unfortunately everything went downhill, and I experienced the worst period of my life yet. I went from having 15 years of an average life, to a month of amazing realisations, to the worst year possible. I could write pages about all of this but that is pointless right now. It has been over a year now and I've only improved a bit in that I am not as numb and negative about life, but a bit, means a bit. I am amritdhari and as far as I can remember I haven't enjoyed myself at the Gurdwara, or willingly gone, in months. I haven't done any paath in months, probably over a year, except the rare occasion. I just can't bring myself to do anything, really. Being stuck in this limbo phase is something unimaginable, just like the time I was enjoying my life. Having experienced such chardikala (of which I am sure was just the beginning) I am gutted that I can't seem to get back there. For over a year now I don't understand how I will ever get back there. Everything has just worsened. Additionally, I am not close to any of my family nor do I have Sikh friends. I have a couple of close-ish friends, although I have realised that as I've been trying to 'get back up' I have basically just been letting myself get influenced by them and their thoughts; things that I would never ask myself or things that I would say "Why waste your time thinking about or doing that when you could be practising Kirtan, doing paath, practising Gurbani Santhiya! Writing this now I barely feel a thing. Thinking about the good times has definitely improved my mood, but it isn't enough. Pleaseeeeeeee please please, just write any of your thoughts. Your advice, opinions, experience, anything. Please. I am ready to get back up, slowly and steadily. I don't mean to offend anyone or come across as dramatic but I am quite all over the place so please don't pick at everything I say. Bhul chuk maaf
  4. Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh I'm in a bit of a dilemma and need advice. I'm talking to someone with the intent of marrying him. He seems really nice and is from a Gursikh family. The only issue is I'm not physically attracted to him. I'm not trying to be shallow and don't know why I feel this way. Even though I'm not attracted to him should I still marry him?
  5. Sat Sri Akaal Dear Sangat, I have always had some thoughts in the back of my mind that I have never been able to comprehend or attempt to even successfully comprehend and I was wondering whether anybody was able to share their wise wisdom with me of this spiritual journey of enlightenment we are all on. I hope my questions do not cause offence and I apologise for any ignorance on my part for any of the questions posed. 1) Still confused over the concept of guru's and waheguru, we worship towards one god. Yet the gurus themselves are contemplated upon through prayer. Does this mean we accept that as we all are extension of god and his energy/creation that the gurus are the purest form of this and hence our devotion towards them? I.e. is there any distinction?? 2) The concept of religion generally? If god is one and exists, then why does it appear that religion in one form or another, i.e. sikhi, hinduism, islam, judaism, etc.... had key messengers/saints or enlightened persons whom originated to only one country and sect of people and then the message had to be spread. I.e. even prior to sikhi (which aims to revise and clarify the concept of god which had been essentially diluted and key messages lost over time) religion or concept of god and method of worship was not revelaed across the globe in same format rather then different formats? How can this make the process fair? Or even imply that we are all worshipping the same god? I.e. christianity essentially revealed to caucasian/white coloured skin whereas sikhi/hinduism revealed to brown/asian people? I know as a mere mortal this may not even be within me to comprehend but it is an ongoing inner conflict of mine. I would very much like to hear your views so that I can share on your knowledge or own interpretations. Many thanks
  6. Where could one go if ur homeless , little money, No job , and little speaking punajbi reading good , where got I stay in India
  7. WJKK WJKF Can somebody please help me? Im am just losing touch with Sikhi, I dont know why. I go to the gurdwara almost everyday to be with Mahraj, I pray, I try. But i still dont feel anything. I dont feel like im moving forward with my life, its like im stuck. I constantly worry about every little thing, even things that dont have anything to do with me. I just feel like i cant hand;e anything, its like im losing myself over the years and i really dont know how to get back. Any advice would be great Fateh Jio
  8. A few days ago, I think it was on this forum, that I came across an article regarding Sant Jarnail Singh Bhindranwale. It answered some question relating around him and the police. It mentioned something about him presenting himself to the police along with 50 others before going into Nanak Niwas. I have been looking for it ever since but cannot find it. Can anyone please help me look for it?
  9. I once had a dream, short one, remember only bits.... I was in this huge hall, there was gold everywhere, the walls, the floors, the the huge cavernous ceilings. The hall was packed with Singhs and Singhnees all running around having fun. There were multicolored gatka Chakrees being spun, people playing gatka, and I say playing not learning shastar vidya because it was like a festival. There was only anand, not meditative but just pure happiness, joyous, bubbling. Everything was so colourful so amazingly vibrant, khalsa orange and blue all mixing with the gold background. I sat down in front of a vaja, with some people as well i think, and just started playing. I've never learned kirtan before so when the music sprang to life and my fingers played with intuitive ease I was even more happy. I think their was simran going on, I can't remember because its been so long since I've thought about this dream. I remember how much I wished as I slept again the next few nights that I could visit that place again. My bhag have been bad/good depending on your view since then. I haven't been as spiritual, infact I almost made a 180 turn. things look so bleak sometimes. I say bad because of the decreased spirituality, I say good because I've been saved from disgrace by those around me, so far, hopefully I haven't used up all of the kamayee from previous janams. Its all waheguru ji's bana I guess. But I really hate this maya jal, but then to hate something is to not except that it is a part of god, and therefore your rejecting that god is everything. And doing that will get you nowhere. It feels pointless sometimes........this atma and the jot hidden inside it............this drop of water can't mix into the ocean without being spared and given good fortune by the ocean itself. The point of this game is lost to me. It's like having a massive basketball court with no hoops and very few people have a ball. And its only when the court decides certain people have a chance they are allowed to shoot, and even then it may not go in. I just felt like sharing what I was feeling.
  10. Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh Gurmukh Pyareo I need help. I am a 16 yeah old Amritdhaari and I was going great with my simran seva reciting Gurbani etc. I was going great until me and my friends at school were playing this game as a joke"who can guess what the person was thinking game". when we were playing it was all fun and games until my friend said me to read theirs, IDK HOW but i guesed everybodys answers or thoughts It was crazy, everybody or that little group was shocked and i told them to keep everything a secret, knowing that i may lose my avasta or IF I EVEN had a anything. (IT MIGHT OF BEEN just some lucky guesses) Then those friends came to me everyday asking me to read thier minds I did'nt want to and i did'nt try too but i did it agian . My friends (GORE) started seeing me as a hardout sant i did'nt like it at first but, i started playing along with it. i started ACTING like a baba (PAKHANDI ONE) . It went on for a term or two of school and christians at school came for help and what not. THEN one day I could'nt DO ANYTHING SIMRAN recite Gurbani, Seva. BUT STILLL ACTED PAKHANDI. for the whole year I stopped talking to everyone at school for last three terms of THIS YEAR, but still have a lot of trouble doing anything, SANTS GIANIS have told me stuff to do but i still don't im stuck in my mind IN MY EGO. NOW im in HARDCORE DEPRESSION and i don't know what to do. I have been having Sucisidal Thoughts . i cant do anything im failling school now iI CANT BELIEVE I acted PAKHANDI, I feel like guru ji hates me. I know he doesnt but he is probably angry at me for acting like a guru or baba :'(. ALL I WANT NOW IS TO GET RID OF THIS FEELING, I TOLD MUM AND DAD ABOUT IT but they think im Full of it .... im going to pesh about everything PLEASE HELP I CANT DO SIMRAN. etc HOW DO I STOP THIS FEELING PLEASE HELP, GURMUKH PYAREO I FALL AT YOUR FEET PLEASE...... .............. FROM A MAHAPAAPI pakhandi dog (me)
  11. I got my results from my Higher School Certificate today.... they are horrible. I was expecting somewhere in the mid 90's, but all my marks are in the high 70's to low 80's. I honestly dont understand, I worked really hard for this. I didn't do too great in the external exams, but this is rock bottom! I believe I am a decent Sikh, I have never really committed a kurehat, I do my paath and simran daily. I have yet to chakk amrit, but I try to follow the path of a Gursikh on a daily basis. I got an ardaas done at the Gurudwara for my results, did 201 jaaps of Chaupee sahib and numerous other paaths and ardaas. I know that I shouldnt have expected much, but I seeked the help of my guru, and I felt really close to Whaguru for once. I felt as though all my problems were miniscule and would wash away in an instance with my guru by my side. Someone please provide me with some guidance, I have taken a hukamnama which has consoled me to an extent, but I need someone to help me understand, because at the moment, I feel very disheartened. I know this is just a 'number' and just a facet of Maya, but knowing that Waheguru is so great, and considering I worked hard both in my studies and spiritually, I am wondering why this has happened... must be my karam (
  12. How do you know what you should be doing? What if you don't know where to start or where to go?