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  1. Eating Meat

    now I know in sikhi people are condommed not to eating meat. right? but if they do... they cant it beef? or is that false.
  2. Make Me Blind

    MAKE ME BLIND In the times of Sri Guru Hargobind Sahib Ji, there was a very poor gursikh who lived in a hut alone. This gursikh was blind and had grown to love the guru from what he had heard. As he couldn’t travel anywhere he would find out who has gone from his village to see the guru. He would ask them, “What does the Guru look like? What weapons does he keep? What stories does he tell?” Each person would reply, “I cannot explain in words.” One night he could not sleep, as his thoughts were focused on meeting the guru. He longed so much to see the beautiful Mukh of Guru Maharaaj. He could not take it any longer and felt angry at himself for being blind. “Guru Ji, I am such a dirty sinner, I am unworthy of your darshan. I do not know what countless sins I have committed for me to suffer without you.” At this moment Guru Hargobind Sahib Ji awoke from Samadhi, and told his Sikhs to get the horses ready to leave immediately. The gursikh felt helpless and began to cry tearing his hut apart. He wanted to go to see his guru; he then made up his mind that he would go by foot and allow the guru to guide him. He packed some food and set off in the dark. On his way he tripped and fell hurting himself badly. His thoughts remained on meeting his guru as he lay on the ground. He suddenly felt two strong arms lift him up to his feet, and he heard a voice. “I have come, my beloved. I could not sleep without doing your darshan, I felt my heart pulling me towards you and I had to come.” When the blind sikh heard this he fell to the guru’s feet and could not contain himself. Guru ji again lifted him to him feet and said, “the home of Guru Nanak contains everything, ask of what you will.” “Guru Ji all that I ask of is that my eyes may work and have your beautiful darshan.” Guru ji smiled and kissed him on both eyes. When he opened them, he fell at Guru Ji’s feet upon seeing him and wept at Guru Ji’s feet. He stared at Guru Ji in amazement for some time. “Beloved I must go now, it is amritvela and the sangat will be waiting.” “ Guru Ji I cannot live without your Darshan now, what will I do?” Guru Ji replied, “The house of Guru Nanak again offers what you ask of it, one more thing.” The gursikh fell to the floor and said, “ Guru Ji if you are going to give me one more thing, then please take these eyes away as I wish not to see anything ever again after having your darshan.” A tear dropped down Guru Ji’s cheek as he granted the final wish.
  3. The CBI will challenge before Delhi High Court the acquittal of Congress leader Sajjan Kumar in a 1984 anti-Sikh riots case by a city court as it has found "strong grounds" which could form basis of its petition. CBI sources said here today that the agency is likely to wait till the court pronounces its verdict on the quantum of sentence for those found guilty in the case. District and Sessions Judge JR Aryan had on April 30 acquitted Kumar in the 29-year-old case in which he was accused of murder and of instigating a riotous mob that killed five Sikhs in Delhi's cantonment area. Five others — Balwan Khokkar, an ex-councillor, Mahender Yadav, an ex-MLA, Kishan Khokkar, Girdhari Lal and Captain Bhagmal — were convicted for their involvement in the riots that had broken out after the assassination of the then Prime Minister Indira Gandhi on October 31, 1984. Kumar, a former Lok Sabha MP from Outer Delhi who was refused a Congress ticket for the 2009 Lok Sabha elections, still faces a trial in another 1984 rioting case. In a third case, the Delhi Police have filed a closure report, saying there was no evidence against Kumar to implicate him. His acquittal has led to protests by Sikh outfits in the national capital and in parts of Punjab. Legal cell on job District and Sessions Judge JR Aryan had on April 30 acquitted Kumar in the 29-year-old case in which he was accused of murder and of instigating a riotous mob that killed five Sikhs in Delhi CBI sources said the agency is likely to wait till the court pronounces its verdict on the quantum of sentence for those found guilty in the case The agency's legal department has studied the judgment and highlighted several strong reasons on the basis of which it is likely to approach the Delhi High Court challenging the acquittal of Kumar
  4. http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/india/Aam-Aadmi-Party-joins-Sikh-protest-against-Sajjans-acquittal/articleshow/19858925.cms NEW DELHI: In support of the Sikh community's protests over the acquittal of Congress leaderSajjan Kumar in a 1984 anti-Sikh riots case, Arvind Kejriwal's Aam Aadmi Party (AAP) on Friday joined the hunger strike for a day at Jantar Mantar in central Delhi. "We are joining hands with our Sikh brothers to protest against the acquittal of Sajjan Kumar. We will join the protest of the family of Nirpreet Kaur, who began her indefinite hunger strike from today (Friday)," Manish Sisodia, senior AAP membertold IANS. In solidarity with Kaur, AAP members Arvind Kejriwal, Manish Sidoda, Gopal Rai, Sanjay Singh and Kumar Vishwas will also sit on a day's fast, and later continue to support her indefinite hunger strike. Various Sikh groups have been on protest since Tuesday, ever since the verdict was pronounced. On Thursday, they staged a protest at the residence of Congress president Sonia Gandhi. Over 115 protesters were detained and later let off. A day after the verdict, on Wednesday, protesters had blocked busy roads in the national capital. Metro services were also disrupted by the protests for a few hours. The Sikh groups are angry that a city court acquitted Sajjan Kumar in a case related to the killing of five people in the Delhi Cantonment area during violence against Sikhs that followed the assassination of then prime minister Indira Gandhi Oct 31, 1984. The court convicted five others in the case. We know both BJP(+Akali Dal) and Congress are highly anti-Sikh. We also know that more panthic parties( like SAD-A) have no chance to make it to the national stage in India, they dont even garner enough votes in Punjab. In this scenario, should Sikhs align with this new political party ( at least on national stage) which has done some good work to expose Congress and BJP's corruption in last few months-years. Obviously Sikhs of Punjab need to get rid of their association with BJP( which occurred primarily because of historic anti-Congress stance since 1984) to project themselves as a community which stands upto justice and human rights. With AAP trying to show some solidarity with the Sikhs( which BJP hasnt done ), do you think its high time that Sikhs should align themselves with AAP on the national stage( with AAP's image being primarily anti-Congress and anti-BJP and more focussed on exposing these parties' corrupt leaders.)
  5. Waheguru I wanted to bring this to the Sangat's attention. For everyone to join freerice.com basically its a game that if you get a question right they will donate 10 rice to the World Food Program. Its free and theirs even a Sikh Team. The questions are easy and if we all pitch together we can greatly make a difference. Join the Sikh team: Sikh teams on freerice.com Waheguru
  6. go on any website....people are saying santji terrorist ... and keep saying ...oh he killed so many hindu.... my question is..... how many hindu were killed from 1980 to 1990's ....is there any govt. numbers? n im not talking about hindi killed by santji .......coz he didnt killed even single hindu........
  7. I been looking on youtube playlists and some of the Sikh related video's i had added are now seen as deleted quite alot of them were videos to do with Sikhs in afghanistan and others due to 3rd party copyright infringements. Anyone else noticed this? And how do we preserve important rare footage for reference and future generations.
  8. PROUDLY SIKH

    Guru Pyari Sadh Sangat Ji Sikhs are Second to Jews, With Having the Most Financially Successful People in the Entire World and Also Having the Lowest Crime Rate of any Religious Group in the World. We Must Be Proud. But Never Forget Your #Sikh Faith.
  9. Sorry not a member - simply a reader but wanted to share this video wit all of you. It's a must watch, a bit long but worth it. trust me.
  10. Hey I am 25 old young man from a sikh family . My family is not that religious I have always felt attracted towards men physically emotionally and sexually . I dont feel desire for women . Infact I feel I am being cheated because my parents want me to marry off to a girl They dont know that I am not into women at all What should or can I do ?
  11. so in canada ....do we still display pics oh our heros? example http://www.flickr.com/photos/akaalsingh/454913903/ reason i asked is.......coz just watch 30 min old video by gora on mainstream media .... bus oh keh reha si sikh ewen kiwe kar sakde ne?its wrong
  12. Humble Benti in Charan of Sangat

    Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh! With the belssings of the Eternal King Sahib Sri Guru Granth Sahib Ji , I hold a humble benti to the Charan of all Sangat. I am in a predicament. I posted previously around 12months ago about a 'Baba' staying at my house and my family following manmat practices - Jal Taareh, Doodh Taareh etc etc. A little about myself: i kept my Kesh 2 years ago however still trimmed my beard and at and drank etc. I am a final year law student. I have always had great pyaar for Sikhi and as a result I stopped eating meat and stopped drinking at the behest of my family. As a result of our differeing views on religion my family and I stopped speaking to each other: my mother and I did not speak for nearly over 10months. When we did start speaking they hinted at me trimming my beard and to stop being 'weird' and start eating meat etc. As a result of keeping the peace within the house i did all of this. Even though i started doing all of the above I did not leave my paath or my Gurudwara (obviously not on the same days as the drink etc). As it was Vaisakhi i stopped for the duration from the srart of April until now - as I had Seva Duties for the Akhand Paath (JapJi Sahib Rauls). My parents got in contact with this Baba bercause of my brother as they thought there was somethign wrong with him - anyway I had an arguiment with my parents a few weeks back and the subject of the Baba came up and I in anger said ill though things about him which angered my parentrs etc. Now we are not speaking again. TOday I had a call from my Mum and I was tryuing to sort things out but it came to the same result _ my mopther asking me not to contact her and not to speak to her etc I was also told that i was old enough to think and do what I want. Im lost Sangat Jee, I would love to Chakk Amrit and become the Sikh of Guru Jee - but honestly I have no one - i thought my family would support me in my path of Sikhi but they wopnt either. Can any Sangat help.? Please Inbox or reply. Waheguru
  13. This article seems to praise Gujurat and BJP while casting aspersions on Punjabis (code word for Sikh I think) and Pakistan (Muslim).. I have put in some select parts below... http://opinion.financialpost.com/2013/04/16/worker-visas-that-work/ Much of this is the result of a generally poor quality of educated immigrants whose skills do not fit our labour market needs. ........... Consider the origin of most immigrants. According to Canadian immigrations statistics, until 2004 Pakistan, with one tenth the population of India, supplied half as many immigrants to Canada. While many immigrants do come to Canada from India, there are strong indications that many arrive from less industrially and technologically advanced regions of India. A huge number of Indian immigrants to Canada arrive from the agricultural state of Punjab. The Canadian consulate in Punjab has experienced the highest rates of fraudulent applications, many times higher than in Delhi. Punjab is not a major center of industry and technological development in India. In contrast, most Indian immigrants to the U.S. arrive from Gujurat. This state is one of India’s most industrially powerful, with a government that has been rated internationally by the Fraser Institute as the most efficient and corruption-free in the country. Many other technology professionals originate in South India, where the technology capital of Bangalore is administered by the same BJP party which runs Gujurat.
  14. might want to bookmark this link http://tv84.tv
  15. i've been remembering websites that i have visited in the past and now when i search for them they no longer exist was wondering if anyone else came across these websites and knows of others that have disappeared? http://www.khalistan.com http://www.burningpunjab.com http://www.akalidal.org website for british sikh federation has disappeared?
  16. Any Brothers / Sisters Help?

    Gur Fateh! Ok so basically, Im lonely in the sense that I cant get sangat anywhere. I know Maharaaj is always with me and when i go to GuruGhar I dont feel it at all. But the problem is i Live in a town where the Sikhs (the elderly and the youth) are more 'Sunday Sikhs' and turn up to the Gurudwara on a Sunday have lanagar and then go. It doesnt help with the fact that my family (parents and bro) are more 'punjabi' than Sikh and think im a bit crazy when i talk about Sikhi etc; and are more mixed (i can expand but its long) So i guess im asking is therte any Sikhs that I can talk to and build my Sikhi with etc ? It may sound weird but i know sangat mahaan hai ! Please inbox me or reply here Thanks for taking the time to read Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh!
  17. In a jolt to pro-Khalistan groups in the US, the Obama Administration today refused to declare the 1984 anti-Sikh riots in India as genocide, but noted that grave human rights violations had occurred. The White House response in this regard came months after a section of the Sikh community in the US launched an online petition campaign urging the Obama Administration to recognise the 1984 riots as genocide. The petition created on November 15, 2012, had generated more than 30,000 signatures within weeks. Each petition that crosses the threshold of 25,000 signatures is reviewed and receive a response. "During and after the 1984 violence, the United States monitored and publicly reported on the grave human rights violations that occurred and the atrocities committed against members of the Sikh community," the White House response said. It noted that the US State Department's Official Country Reports on Human Rights Practices, for example, covered the violence and its aftermath in detail, with sections on political killings, disappearances, denial of fair public trials, negative effects on freedom of religion, and the government's response to civil society organizations investigating allegations of human rights violations. "We continue to condemn and more importantly, to work against - violence directed at people based on their religious affiliation. US government efforts to protect the rights and freedoms of all people have long been a feature of our foreign policy. Our diplomats regularly report on and speak out against violence against minorities around the world," the White House said in response to the online petition. Expressing disappointment over the response, the proponents of the petition in a statement said that the Obama Administration "fails to take position on Sikh genocide". "The response ignores the recent discoveries of mass graves of Sikhs killed during 1984 and falls short of taking a position on the issue of Genocide," said a statement issued by Gurpatwant S Pannun, who heads the New York-based 'Sikh for Justice' group. http://www.indianexpress.com/news/us-refuses-to-declare-1984-antisikh-riots-in-india-as-genocide/1096573/0
  18. What kind of sikhs are these people. Are they good people what do they believe and is it possible they do bad things like magic? When I was in India I went to one of these people's house and the whole family had dreadlocks and on the walls of the house where drawings of the sun and a guru pointing towards it plus one of the elder member o the family couldn't speak and there was a place to bow down and do a meta terk like how sikhs do in the gudwara. Anyone know there way of living and how they are also sikhs ?
  19. Walk a mile in a Sikh’s turban Thursday at University of Guelph Preetam Singh, 20, describes his religious conviction as a love affair with God. The University of Guelph student is helping to organize the Sikh Students' Association's Sikh Awareness Day on Thursday. Non-Sikhs will get the opportunity to experience what it is like to wear turban. Rob O'Flanagan/Mercury staff GUELPH—A Sikh’s turban, or dastar, is a symbol of religious devotion and a mark of personal courage. It and other elements of customary Sikhi dress distinguish followers of the religion from others in Canadian society, and that distinction is not without challenges. The Sikh Student Association at the University of Guelph will hold a Sikh Awareness Day on Thursday, giving non-Sikhs an opportunity to experience what it is like to wear a turban. The event is patterned after others on Canadian campuses aimed at familiarizing Canadians with Sikh beliefs and inviting them to experience both the highs and lows of wearing the dastar. Preetam Singh, 20, was a striking figure over the weekend on the U of G campus, wearing flowing dark bana—traditional attire—with his high, dark blue dastar covering his uncut hair, and a kirpan—dagger—strapped to this hip. “As soon as I walk in a room I have people’s attention,” Singh said. “It gives me the opportunity to teach people something about my faith.” The Sikhi way of life, he added, has timeless and holistic qualities. While the rules, ethics and customs of society are constantly changing, the teachings of the faith remain stable. His religion, he said, is a love affair, and one he entered into of his own volition at the age of 13. “I think of it as falling in love,” said the U of G history student. “You don’t choose who you fall in love with, or when you are going to fall in love. You have no power over it. I never thought that I was going to be as religious as I am now.” As with other religions, Sikhs strive to be constantly mindful of the presence of God in their day-to-day lives. It’s a devotional ambition to which Singh is committed. “Everyday is a challenge to make yourself better,” he said. “It’s never good enough. You always have to work for something more, to try harder and strive for higher ideals. Ideals are perfection and we are imperfect as human beings.” Being easily identifiable as an adherent to a particular faith, he said, puts an onus of responsibility upon a Sikh. “As a Sikh I know that people know immediately that I am different, that I am religious,” he said. “If someone knows that I am a Sikh then I am representing the Sikh faith. All my actions represent the Sikh faith—what I say, what I do, how I act. It gives you a lot of responsibility, and I have to really strive to put the Sikh faith in a better light.” Sikhs do face overt discrimination because of their appearance, Singh said. Mass media, he said, has associated the wearing of a turban with perpetrators of terrorist acts, and that negative and unfair association has been applied to Sikhs. “I think it is very important for us to propagate the wearing of the turban, and to have people know the difference between the Sikh religion and other religions, and why we wear a turban,” Singh said. “It is a show of peace.” The Sikh religion—the term Sikhism is not proper—began in the late 1400s in the Punjab region of India. It has no clergy. The faith promotes the equality of all human beings, social justice, the removal of superstition and blind ritual from religious life, earning an honest living, and circumventing worldly desires and sin. There are about 20 million Sikhs worldwide, and it is estimated there are more than 300,000 in Canada. To be a part of the Khalsa, or collective body of the faith, one must wear five kakars, or articles of faith, on their person, including uncut hair, a wooden comb, a metal bracelet, special cotton undergarments, and the dagger. Thursday’s Sikh Awareness Day, sponsored by the Sikh Student Association, runs throughout the day in the University Centre and is a chance to “walk in the shoes of a Sikh for one day.” roflanagan@guelphmercury.com [www.guelphmercury.com]
  20. Was posted on MSNBC and a few other local sites and it seems like he will eventually get more press. My analysis is that something like this should be done as I am a gun rights advocate, but he should have changed his lawsuit to the rights of all people, not just Sikhs. If he can handle himself to show that he is suing on the basis of wanting to challenge the courts while wanting to defend everyone's right and not look like a "crazy person" as some will likely paint him as, I think he can do a lot of good for the Sikh image here in USA. Initially what he is proposing is "out there" (to get noticed you need to propose something out there), but if he handles this well and turns it balanced real fast when he gets interviewed and more about everyone's rights and as being patriotic Americans, this can do a lot of good for the cause in my opinion. It seems like Sikhs are quiet and distancing themselves from Gursant Singh and this because most are scared and not confident enough to portray themselves as being Americans who exercise their rights to freedom. We are Americans so we should act like Americans, don't you all think? Coincidentally being a Sikh is also about morality and freedom to practice dharam and defend dharam.... Personally I find it despicable when hippy Sikhs support banning guns, especially considering banning guns and creating gun free zones increases crime because criminals will continue to do what they do without any deterrent. It's sad Sikhs in USA aren't well versed enough in the constitution and what the contents are. I think the actual foundation of USA (not the current evolved non-American system) is very similar to what a Sikh raaj would have been like. I would like to consider myself pretty patriotic and proud to be American even though I don't support the war and how the current system is being run. (Click article to see the video of what he says) Here is the article from one of the websites: http://theurbandaily.com/2130101/sikh-sues-california-gun-ban/ The harder individual states push for stricter gun control laws, the more citizens fight back. A man who is a follower of the Sikh faith is suing the state of California to stop their proposed ban on guns claiming it is against his religion. Gursant Singh Khalsa filed a federal lawsuit against the state of California claiming the gun ban stops him from fully practicing his religion by not permitting him to own or carry assault rifles and high capacity magazines. Khalsa stated, “Decrees from the Tenth Sikh Guru state in the most vigorous and clear words that, ‘a Sikh’s conception of God is the sword of God is the sword of dharma.” Gursant Singh Khalsa has been practicing the Sikh religion for 35 years and says some practicing members already carry the “sword of dharma” as means for protection. Khalsa argued if assault weapons were legalized, mass shootings like those in Colorado and Wisconnsin would drop significantly. “We have an obligation to defend those who can’t defend themselves,” Khalsa said. Some Sikhs don’t agree with Khalsa’s lawsuit. Yuba City Sikh Temple director Tejinder Dosanjah feels that everyone deserves the right ot protect themselves and families no matter what religion the practice. he also condemned Khalsa’s interpretation of religions scriptures for his own personal gain. Dosanjah said, “He should not involve the Sikh faith directly or indirectly into this lawsuit.” Check out the video below. Do you agree with the lawsuit? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ http://now.msn.com/gursant-singh-khalsa-sikh-man-says-assault-weapons-ban-interferes-with-religion#scpshrcsfb Man's lawsuit says he totally needs assault weapons for his religion 9 hrs ago A Sikh man is suing California, claiming that the state's proposed ban on assault weapons and high-capacity magazines would prevent him from fully practicing his faith. "I am just going by the Sikh religion and what Sikhs are mandated to do," Gursant Singh Khalsa said. "We have an obligation to defend those who can't defend themselves." However, Yuba City Sikh Temple director Tejinder Dosanjah spoke against Khalsa, arguing that while everyone has a right to protect themselves, interpreting scripture for one’s personal benefit is not right. "He should not involve the Sikh faith directly or indirectly into this lawsuit," Dosanjah said. [Source] Click to see more on msnNOW.com, updated 24 hours a day.
  21. im sort of just gonna go on a rant about wat im currently feeling about sikhi. im currently just thinking about leaving sikhi behind annd just becoming a manmukh. i mean wats the point of being a sikh of the guru, if i cant wake up at amritvela,? if i cant even do simran,? if i dont have any shub gunn (sat, santokh, daya etc)? and i watch tv,? and constanly being bombarded by kaam ego krodh lobh and moh? what makes me different than a gora or punjabi person thats not amritdhari? I have lost pyra for sikhi and for guru sahib.....and i have tried to get it back and to no avail my attempts have failed...im just a loser, a fake, a pakhandi, a disgrace to sikhi and to guru sahib...so wouldnt i be doing everyone a favour by just leaving this religion? As my wordly knowloedge specifically knowledge i am reciving at school about how the human brain works and how humans behave, it just seems to me that there is no such thing as god and that it more of personal thing about how people act such as thier physiological state can determine thier behavior and if you activate certain brain regions you can make people beleive that they have seen god etc. etc. Dont get me wrong.....I actually once had a jeevan back in the day in my teenage years....i used to wake up at amritvela everyday at 2:50 am and would do ishnaan and start doing simran by around 3 am and would do it for a minimum one hour and then i would do my punj bani's and then i would go back to sleep around 5am to 530am ish. I woke up on a consistent basis, in about 3 years i probably missed amritvela only twice, other than that i woke up everyday. With guru sahibs kirpa, i would even have the chance of doing 5 or somtimes 10 extra jap ji sahibs the paat a day and i did that for atleast 2-3 months on a consistent basis. ALso with guru sahib kirpa, i was able to start sitting in sangat in one sitting without moving my legs or opening my eyes for at least five to six hrs straight and i would just sit there just listening to keertan and i wouldnt even realise that i had been sitting for that long and i did that on a consistent basis (it wasn't a once in a time thing). Also i was also able to increase my simran to 2.5hrs to 3hrs a day for a couple months. and i rarely watched any sort of tv in my teenage yrs.... i guess i had pretty good jeevan back then? Back then i had alot sharda and love for guru sahib and for sikhi..... and for his gursikhs eventually i had a chance to stay with this gursikh (who i will not name, since alot of ppl respect him(but i dont anymore))who came to the UK, and i considered him to be a true gursikh/bram giani. I did sangat of him for long time almost half a year or so, and i saw many thing that were against maryada that he did, like taking off keeski like a topi, not washing hands properly when holding pothi, not waking up at amritvela( side not i thought they didnt wake up at amritvela because i thought they were in "samadhi"), not seeing them do thier nitnem or doing simran (they even told me to stop doing my nitnem) etc etc the list goes on..... but i was too naive, i didnt want to beleive what i was seeing, i just chose to ignore what i saw and thought to myself that they were testing my sharda etc However, while staying with them i thought i was doing good for myself by diong sangat of a gursilh that did seva for god, so i thought i would bennifit from that. When i eventually left their sangat, the immedidate effects of thier sangat was that i was no longer able to wake up at amritvela and the simran i used to do stopped to, i was just overcome with pure laziness. I thought it was just temporary but i was wrong, so far its been almost 4 years since i havent woken up at amritvela on a consistent basis and done simran on a consistent basis.And another effect was that i was no longer able to go to sangat like i used to on a regular basis, and i also stopped doing proper adrass (i just do the short one) Amritvela was my life, by waking up at amritvela i would feel happy about myself. but by not waking up at amritvela i started to become depressed and started to feel bad about myself and eveantually i didnt want to show my face to the other singhs because i just felt like such a pakhandi and ashamed of myself. and with the depression that i eventually got it caused me even further to stay away from sangat. Eventaully by not waking up at amrtivela, i started to become atttacked by maya alot, espically kaam, and that caused me to eniterely lose my spirtual jeevan. And i also started to watch lots of TV and spend alot of time on the internet. And basically now i live a manmukh jeevan, i watch tv (lots of it), look at girls all the time , have kaami thoughts all time , engrossed in maya 24/7..... i guess the only thing that seperates me from a manukh is that i still do my 5 banis and rehrasss and keertan sohilla everyday. Basically, i see no point in trying to becoming a sikh anymore, i tried so hard in my teenage yrs because i wanted to become a true singh, i didnt have any freinds in school and i didnt even have a gf and i didnt even talk or flirt with girls (except for a while but i eventaully stoppped), i tried my best not use the internet that much, i tried my best to watch little to no tv, i tried my best to stay away from bad sangat and to only do sangat of certain good singhs. After staying with that "gursikh" and seeing other singhs that i looked up to alot and finding out they are not what i thought they were, it was really heartbreaking for me to see, it really just broke my sharda and love towarsd sikhi from seeing these tyope of pakhandi singhs that i looked up to as role models not ebing what i thought they really were. In ending, i just wanted to get this off my chest (since i have no freinds, and i have been holding on to this for so long, i thought that this would be way to get off) and i want to truely say that i have no love for sikhi....i want to have love but i just dont know how anymore.........i have tried to do simran and read bani but i just cant do it...i just cant...maybe its not written in my karama to practice living sikh way of life......i guess its just better for me to give up and not have any spirtualy expectation about myself.........................
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