Waheguroo Jee Ka Khalsa! Waheguroo Jee Kee Fateh!!
8 and a half years ago I was totally unaware of Sikhi. I had cut hair and used to eat meat, it was the norm for me and my family as a whole. I knew we went to a place called a Gurdwara, and that there was something special about the Gurdwara, that separated it from my house or any other building. But I knew nothing about our Guru Sahibaans or of the rich history of Sikhi.
Then when I was about seven years old, I went along with my family to Panjaab because it was my Mama Ji's wedding. The wedding took place as normal, I carried on living life unsuspecting the big change that would take place within me in a few weeks time. Anyway a few weeks later it was New Years Eve, so my family decided to welcome in the New Year at Siri Harimandar Sahib.
So we arrived payed our respects and then night began to fall. We drove everywhere in Amritsar in the vain hope that we could find somewhere to stay the night. There were no vaccancies anywhere. So we decided to put down our blankets in the Parikarma of Siri Harimandar Sahib.
Everyone started getting ready for bed, and soon everyone was asleep, but not me. I was mesmerised by the beautiful Siri Harimandar Sahib. I saw at that moment, what Guru Arjan Sahib Ji meant when he wrote,
"I have seen all places, but none can compare to You. The Primal Lord, the Architect of Destiny, has established You; thus You are adorned and embellished. Ramdaspur is prosperous and thickly populate
d, and incomparably beautiful. O Lord! Bathing in the Sacred Pool of Raam Daas, the sins are washed away, O Nanak. "
I kept gazing longingly at Siri Harimandar Sahib, I couldn't turn away. My family kept telling me to go to sleep but all I could hear was the eternal Shabad "Waheguru, Waheguru," in my ears. It looked to me as if the sun and moon were moving round the Siri Harimandar Sahib, as if the whole world was doing a natural Aarti of Siri Harimandar Sahib. It was as Guru Nanak Sahib Ji wrote,
"Upon that cosmic plate of the sky, the sun and the moon are the lamps. The stars and their orbs are the studded pearls. The fragrance of sandalwood in the air is the temple incense, and the wind is the fan. All the plants of the world are the altar flowers in offering to You, O Luminous Lord. ||1|| What a beautiful Aartee, lamp-lit worship service this is! O Destroyer of Fear, this is Your Ceremony of Light. The Unstruck Sound-current of the Shabad is the vibration of the temple drums. ||1||Pause||"
I was intoxicated by the most beautiful and magnificent Darshan of Siri Harimandar Sahib, the more I looked the more my spiritual hunger increased. The whole night had passed by, but still I couldn't take my gaze away from Siri Harimandar Sahib. Then I heard the loud prayers of the Sevadaars getting ready for the Parkash of the Siri Guru Granth Sahib Ji, "Satnaam Waheguru!" My family started to wake up, they were astonished to see that I had remained awake for the whole night.
I could see a multitude of people gathering near where Guru Sahib had gone at the time of Sukh Aasan. Then I saw Guru Sahib ji being carried in the Magnificent Golden Paalki towards Siri Harimandar Sahib. My Nana Ji took me close to the Paalki and as i glimpsed Guru Sahib in all their splendour I was intoxicated with love for Guru Ji, and when I actually got a chance to touch the Paalki it was as if a bolt of lightening ran
through my veins. All I could hear was the Guru's eternal Shabad "Waheguru!" It was as if Guru Ji had touched my heart and pierced it with an arrow of his love. As Guru Arjan Sahib Ji wrote,
"My mind is pierced through by the arrow of the Lord's Love. "
I kept going up to the Paalki again and again the more I connected with the Paalki the more of this new overwhelming energy started to flow through me. It was overwhelming to say the least. After that experience I collapsed and didn't come round for 10 to 20 minutes. Guru Ji had hit me with his arrow of love. At that moment there and then I vowed never to cut my hair or eat meat again. As we walked out of the holy complex of Siri Harimandar Sahib, I rushed over to the nearest book stall and bought 4 books about the Ten Guru's which I used to read everyday as if they were Paath themsleves.
Just over eight years have past between that experience and now. A lot of changes have taken place. I'm now nearly 16 and Amritdhari and have been so for about 7 and a half years. I can now do kirtan and read the Gurbani, but this is not due to myself, it is due to Guru Ji's guiding hand. Guru Ji has looked after me and helped me every step of the way. Guru Ji even took a Paapi like me into his protection, think what Guru Sahib can do for you. Just have faith and never forget that your father, Guru Gobind Singh, is always looking after you.