JaiKanhaiya

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  1. My apologies for the late response I have tried to keep myself occupied the last few days to get my mind off it and I have something going on that I needed to go deal with which has been a welcome distraction. I deleted out the Gurnukhi as I can only read English and speak Panjabi I am a Monah. And when I copy and paste across it comes across as random letters and symbols so I just delete out the Gurmukhi. Apologies if this has caused offence. I don't know if I did deal with it is probably the only time I have ever been so stubborn that i refused to call or contact someone. And as this happened my bibi died a few weeks later and then a few weeks later I bought a business and then that was that. I had no time to think or dwell i just went off and got on with my life. Then a year later I was married. I had no reason to think about her its annoyed me that I have let it come back into my life to bother me I think I have had a bit of a crisis. I don't want to go into every detail I guess at the time she thought she would meet someone better than me where as at the time I had become quite pragmatic and I accepted that I was not perfect and never was going to be. But for a long time I thought I had done something wrong. I could say a lot more I did want to write more but I need to draw line under this and just forgot her forever. Thanks I believe this too, It was never meant to be. There is somewhere in my mind where I want to get to and that is the goal. Thank-you all for your help and time.
  2. You are right I'm not going to do anything I didn't come here to find vindication for dishonorable actions I just want to snap out of it. I haven't been like this for many years and I'm really not sure what has come over me in the last week. Raag Saarang - Guru Tegh Bahaadur Ji - Sri Guru Granth Sahib Ji - Ang 1231
  3. I don't she is married im pretty certain of it . When I texted her I didnt think her number would even be the same. At the time I thought she was making a mistake not marrying me that probably sounds very arrogant. I would have taken care of her. I don't think I'm a very good husband to my wife becaus of this regret. Because my gut feeling is still that she was the one. How do you reconcile that with the belief that everything out guru does is for the best? If I did contact her then there would be nothing innocent in my intentions. All she could do is break my heart again maybe that will end it and I can move on. Raag Prabhaatee - Guru Arjan Dev Ji - Sri Guru Granth Sahib Ji - Ang 1347