My apologies for the late response I have tried to keep myself occupied the last few days to get my mind off it and I have something going on that I needed to go deal with which has been a welcome distraction.
I deleted out the Gurnukhi as I can only read English and speak Panjabi I am a Monah. And when I copy and paste across it comes across as random letters and symbols so I just delete out the Gurmukhi. Apologies if this has caused offence.
I don't know if I did deal with it is probably the only time I have ever been so stubborn that i refused to call or contact someone. And as this happened my bibi died a few weeks later and then a few weeks later I bought a business and then that was that. I had no time to think or dwell i just went off and got on with my life. Then a year later I was married.
I had no reason to think about her its annoyed me that I have let it come back into my life to bother me I think I have had a bit of a crisis.
I don't want to go into every detail I guess at the time she thought she would meet someone better than me where as at the time I had become quite pragmatic and I accepted that I was not perfect and never was going to be. But for a long time I thought I had done something wrong.
I could say a lot more I did want to write more but I need to draw line under this and just forgot her forever.
Thanks I believe this too, It was never meant to be. There is somewhere in my mind where I want to get to and that is the goal.
Thank-you all for your help and time.