just reading this hurts me, i feel sad for the husband.
Please curb these thoughts right away, nip them in the bud, if you dwell on them they will take a larger form and then things will g out of hand.
listen to jac singh , he is on point with this one.
and cut all contact with him, even if you try to be just friends , it still wont be same.
your mind is playing tricks, beware!
you have made a vow ! dont break it please.
i hope you are just a troll and not actually a real person.