I am very sensitive...start crying...when anybody hurts me...bp increases...gusa ahanda I want to give jawab...but ode cha vi oh gusa nikalde ki nu vado ko jawab dendi...wat I do? I fear that they should blame amritdhari. ..as I am amritdhari. ..as once due to cleanliness they blamed me that amrit chakan nal kuch ni honda...at that time it was start of my mrg...I haven't done any work at hme as we had maid for everything...there was so much freedom at my hme b4 mrg...ode baad sab kuch change ho gaya....total opposite life...now its being 3 yeared of married life and I m still feeling like I can't take a breadth without permission....that's why I am unable to plan baby...bcoz I am hvng mental tensions....my saas will never take care of my baby as i will do study, job and I think in that house I can't take breadth how my baby will...as she is already frustrated with her past life doing household work all day and handling his husband ego....